Monday, March 3, 2014

Pictures that make you feel ALIVE

The search for my interests in  a career is still underway. A marine biologist? A member on a marine animal rescue team? A spokesperson for Ocean Conservancy? Hmm. I don't know. I'm still searching....but I have realized that  my love for books has only gotten stronger as I grow older. While I can't tell where a comma should be apart from a spot where the semicolon belongs, like an editor, and I don't prefer to teach students in a classroom, like an English teacher...the library has always called my name. So therefore, how about a librarian?

A job, surrounded by books?
How would that even feel like a job?
"But then, every librarian needs to be a little bit of a dragon- or else, Who would guard the books?"
Last Thursday after Biology class, I was changing for volleyball, and we were out of class late, so the other girls that take biology that are in volleyball, and I were stressed to hurry. In my rush, I realized that I had lost one of my lovely rose studs my sister had given me for my 16th birthday. In slight distress, I went back to the bathroom and searched the stall I had changed in. Nothing. I found that a small relief. I still had the other stud in my ear, and placed it safely in my backpack until volleyball was over. If the stud wasn't in the bathroom, it had to be tangled in my change of clothes in my bag.
Once I got in the van, I fumbled around in my bag, and there it was! I was so grateful to find it.
I knew the stud backings seemed loose at first, but I never bothered to change them for a more sturdy pair of backings, until Thursday, when I got home I changed the backings to a more tight-fitting pair.
I typically take out my earrings before I change, but since we were stressed to hurry, I got frantic and forgot.
Have I ever mentioned that I am no good under pressure?
It would make no sense to talk about Summer while there is snow right outside my bedroom window...but I'm going to do it anyway.
I haven't the slightest clue why, but I have been longing to feel to ocean breeze and watch the ocean rise and fall in it's strangely calming way.
If I thought it wise, I would live near the ocean. Closer than I do now. I would live so close, that I could bike there and back again. Only two things hold me back, the crowds and the danger of hurricanes.
But I love the uncanny calmness of ocean living, right down to the oceanic room decorations and the sand trailing into your beach house.
*sigh* If I could, I would live there.
Recently, my parents went to Costco and saw kayaks for sale for $300.
I have been painfully, slowly, saving up to buy  one.
I only think I'll have enough to buy one when I graduate and have my graduation party.
Britney bought herself an ipad mini with her graduation money.
I on the other hand, am quite on the downscale of technology. Mostly because I can't stand it. And I would much rather be out kayaking on $300 bucks than lugging around a $300 piece of technology with me at college.
Wanderings by the forgotten tracks where once a train burdened with carts of coal would travel.
The other evening we were heading out to eat at 'The Golden Corral' when the phone rang, and dad talked to my grandma for quite some time. So we (Mom, Britney, and I) went out to warm up the van. It's been chilly, so it's always a good idea to warm up the van.
Mom started to joke about how it would be funny if we drove behind the bushes to make it look like we had left and make dad freak out a little.
So I joked that I could back out of the driveway and do it and she told me to go right ahead!
I have driven before, but only in empty parking lots.
And well, I am 16 now....I have to start practicing somehow!
So, yes! I got to back out of our driveway and drive up to the court and back.
Ahh! And I didn't hit anything!
"I like fishing. It's like yoga; except, you get to kill something!"
Sadly, according to a state law here, I can't fish without a $20 fishing license now that I'm 16.
People will do anything to squeeze money out of you.
And the sad thing is that I only like the feeling of reeling in and out a weight attached to my fishing line. I don't even bother attaching a hook most of the time.
I just like the feeling of fishing, it's relaxing.
I love daisies, and buttercups.
I love the smell of roses. But I feel like roses are too mainstream.
If and when I get a guy, I truly don't want him to buy me any flowers.
I feel like handpicked flowers hold much more meaning.
Spring is just around the corner, and I am so excited!
The closer I get to summer, the closer I am to being done with sophomore year!
School has been boring this year, but I have plans for the summer!
* Learn how to drive.
* Read 'The Lord of the Rings'
Among a couple other things!
Let's go bring back Summer!
And I can't wait to figure out what plans God has in store for a career for me. I've had so many interests in my life so far, but lately I've been stuck in a rut with what to major in at college.


For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


  1. I love these pictures and descriptions! Especially the books, dock, and railroad ones.

    Oooh, I'm terrrrible under pressure. That's how it seemed when I worked at the grocery store. You need to be able to handle pressure as a cashier. I think I did pretty good, but I was such nervous wreck at first!

    Haha we've done something similar a bunch of dad pretending to drive away just as one of us came outside to get in the car!

    Aah! I can't wait for spring/summer. So much I want to DO. Things I just can't do in this dead winter. I loved the snow while it lasted, but now it's old.
    I'm tired of being coldy.
    I want to swim.
    And ride Daisy bareback. I could care less about the bugs.
    And walk around barefoot all summer long.

    Lovely post! I'm having trouble trying to keep calm and patient about what I should do in my future. I know what I want to do, but what does God want me to do?

  2. I completely agree with you! It was in the 60's here yesterday....and I freely admit that I enjoyed it very much! I love the cold, but I really want some warmth from the sun.

    Yeah, I know what you mean. Figuring out what God wants you to do can be difficult to figure out sometimes :/